The Road to Awareness


The concept of Awareness, so central to Buddhism, is one that seems hard to define and increasingly difficult to witness being practiced in the breakneck pace of our society. I infer a vast difference between knowledge, merely an acceptance and retaining of fact, and awareness, which in my mind is a connection to, and by extension an appreciation for, every circumstance. Now by appreciation, I certainly do not mean that I am "happy" that every circumstance exists. Quite the contrary. Situations both close to home and across the oceans leave me horrified on an almost daily basis. understanding, that is the difference. I understand that the baby in the Congo, the little girl in Cambodia, the young boy in Palestine and (and this is a far more difficult one) - the criminal in Kingston Penitentiary - are connected to me by our mutual birthright and that therefore every strike against them in the form of hostile aggression or passive ignorance dishonours my humanity. I understand that each time I ignore a vagrant on the street instead of meeting his eyes and saying "Hello", I deplete myself. I know it because I feel it each time I decide to choose blindness or feign deafness. We are all too human and sometimes we simply cannot handle what it means to have senses intact. It is painful and brutal to look at the reality of man's inhumanity to man and the devastation that nature - so long trespassed upon - can wreak in retaliation. For where there is hearing and sight there is responsibility.

The Empty Boat

Many thanks to Gene for his timely post. Coincidentally, or not so coincidentally (I don't want to open that can o' worms right now!), I had planned to write something about Buddhist views of anger today, and then logged on to find Gene's eloquent discussion of the same topic. And coincidentally/not-so-coincidentally, I had planned on quoting Zhuangzi's Buddho-Taoist simile of the empty boat: ...if he sees a man in the boat/ He will shout at him to steer clear/ ...if the boat were empty/ He would not be shouting, and not angry.

The spirit behind Zhuangzi's simile is echoed in Chapter 6 of Shantideva's Bodhicharyavatara, "The Perfection of Patience". Here are some key verses:

24. A person does not get angry at will, having decided 'I shall get angry', nor does anger well up after deciding 'I shall well up'.

Anger and War

I've been angry a lot lately. Anger may seem like a taboo subject on a blog about Buddhism, but everyone has feelings of anger sometimes, Buddhist or not. As the author of "The Secret of the Yamas" explains, if we were not violent beings, we wouldn't have to try to be non-violent.

So what's been upsetting me lately is the current Israeli assault on Gaza, and the large and brutal loss of of civilian life involved.

The First Rule

The first rule of meditation practice is... do not talk about meditation practice.

The second rule of meditation practice is... DO NOT TALK ABOUT MEDITATION PRACTICE.

Ok, so that's not really what Brad Pitt says in the film Fight Club, but it's close. The idea still applies. In "Wherever You Go, There You Are", author Jon Kabat-Zinn advises beginning meditators to not bother talking to others about their new meditation practice.

I think this is a good idea, although I usually fail epically at it. I'll find myself chit-chatting with someone, talking about all kinds of things, and it just comes out. "Yeah, I try to do 30 minutes a day... blah blah blah."

awareness and dishes

While washing dishes, I try to focus simply on washing the dishes. I try to notice when my mind wanders. I note the warmth of the water. I run my finger along the chip in the rim of a cereal bowl, and contrast that to the smoothness of the rest of it.

I remember that I bought the bowl at Ikea, like most of my living room furniture.

Still washing dishes, I realize that a few minutes have passed, and my mind has wandered all over the place. Work, future plans, a woman I saw, car repairs I need to get done...